"hypocritical asshooolism"
---political correctness of the highest order---
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
donch mind me..i siao one!
it wouldn't be a far stretch of the imagination to say the biggest turning point of my life was the time i penned my signature down on that piece of paper signifying that i had lost all will to live. my parents choked on my idiocy, peers and enemies both began their tirade of endless mocking, heck even Jesus came to me in a dream one night to personally lay me a Stone Cold Stunner(tm) if only for lack of adequate vocabulary to condemn my lack of self respect.
*i still hear the screams...*
6 years on and nothing's much changed. the outright condemnation by the general populace has been phased to silent mocking behind my back, which is less painful because what you don't hear can't hurt you...right? i also have the distinct privilege of working with talented young achievers who by sheer coincidence all happen to be of similar gender..one i try to avoid as best i can.
i refrain from embarking on journeys of self delusion to ask myself what life could have been..perhaps i'm afraid of the answer, or maybe i'm just avoiding what i already know. so the solution is just to keep running
competing & comparing are big flaws of humanity right up there with hot yet scheming/self-centered/materialistic females..but its unavoidable. horniness is something you can hide, but not eliminate. competing & comparing follow the same principle, except it doesn't result in strewn tissues.
self reflective posts like this are a bitch to compile..bantering about the inadequacies of other individuals are far easier than making an honest assessment of oneself. seems like each time one performs some kind of self soul searching, it results in some generic revelation that appears to be the cure all for the world's problems. alas, no revelation to be found here...if i'm lucky i'll find the missing half of my 人间凶器 collection..
considering how i've been in a downward spiral these years i think its frickin' hyprocritical/amazing how i maintain the status quo as a general devilspawn who lords over the peasants of society. considering my situation, who the heck am i to judge anyone? i know a couple of queers but they had more common sense to return to society w/o any strings attached. so who's the real queer here? mebbe i shd start gg church again..
self reflection seriously sucks.
GOT SOMETHING TO SAY??
-e|even¹¹-
*i still hear the screams...*
6 years on and nothing's much changed. the outright condemnation by the general populace has been phased to silent mocking behind my back, which is less painful because what you don't hear can't hurt you...right? i also have the distinct privilege of working with talented young achievers who by sheer coincidence all happen to be of similar gender..one i try to avoid as best i can.
i refrain from embarking on journeys of self delusion to ask myself what life could have been..perhaps i'm afraid of the answer, or maybe i'm just avoiding what i already know. so the solution is just to keep running
competing & comparing are big flaws of humanity right up there with hot yet scheming/self-centered/materialistic females..but its unavoidable. horniness is something you can hide, but not eliminate. competing & comparing follow the same principle, except it doesn't result in strewn tissues.
self reflective posts like this are a bitch to compile..bantering about the inadequacies of other individuals are far easier than making an honest assessment of oneself. seems like each time one performs some kind of self soul searching, it results in some generic revelation that appears to be the cure all for the world's problems. alas, no revelation to be found here...if i'm lucky i'll find the missing half of my 人间凶器 collection..
considering how i've been in a downward spiral these years i think its frickin' hyprocritical/amazing how i maintain the status quo as a general devilspawn who lords over the peasants of society. considering my situation, who the heck am i to judge anyone? i know a couple of queers but they had more common sense to return to society w/o any strings attached. so who's the real queer here? mebbe i shd start gg church again..
self reflection seriously sucks.
GOT SOMETHING TO SAY??
-e|even¹¹-
